Friday, January 29, 2010

It's 3 o'clock!?!?

Good afternoon! :)

A quick Howdy-do! I just wanted to pop in and let y'all know of a few things going on around this part!

For the past few weeks, I have been trying to grow my blogging audience by many (I thought it was the Lord's direction.) and after a little bit of a failed attempt, I had another meeting with the CEO of Creation (aka God).

I feel Him pointing me in a new direction. I am going to continue bloggging and posting the series Women Blessing Women but I am not going to be as fervent and determined as I once was.

My focus is going to shift to those already in my life (family, friends, church) and those who already read my blog. And I bet if I miss a day of writing, y'all will forgive me.

Instead I am going to focus on more indepth and personal posts, getting my house together, finishing out the school year with a bang, getting ready for our church bazaar and the three last but in my book the most important things are: finding myself and new hobbies which I enjoy, spending time with my kids that are getting way too big way too quick, and growing a deeper relationship with my Father. (Wow! What a run-on sentence! sorry... )

I have to be completely honest with you. I have been searching desperately for the direction the Lord wants me to go and I thought it was this blog. I thought it was writing and ministering to you wonderful readers. But after much prayer and acutally listening, I feel the Lord leading me away from this. I feel Him telling me that I need to work on IRL relationships. I feel Him telling me to quit hiding in a land where others can only read my words and I'm "safe".

You see, I have been hiding. It is so easy to minister and open up to a group of people that don't see your face and that you don't have to see them. I am hiding behind a computer. It is time that I get out in my community and tell others about Jesus and myself. It is time that I put myself out there and try to let others in. It's just time.

And while I really feel this pushing from the Lord, I will still be checking in and updating y'all on the crazy adventures in motherhood and finding myself that I get into.

 Please be in prayer for me as I search for myself and open up to people that I do see. Pray that I have the courage and the faith...

Blessings dear friends!


Courtney said...

:( I've never "seen" you and we're not IRL buds who hang out, but I definitely love you to pieces! I'm gonna miss your frequent posts, but I really respect and admire your goals and priorities. Your IRL friends/family are so blessed to have you.

Misty said...

I'm so proud of you...step it up and take care of your priorities because we so often shuffle them around for others. It's so important to put things back into perspective now and again and I'll pray that things transition well and that you are greatly blessed!

*Hubby's boss was once blown away because something had come up at home that Hubby needed to take care of - his boss told him that his job should come first. Hubby said, "No, my family is first, my church is second and my job is third..."! Guess that's why his boss has been married 3 or 4 times - but Hubby STILL feels this way, AND lets it be known. He is now respected for that and is known to be very reliable, too - I don't think they thought he could be both! LOL!

Adventure Mom Janna said...

Your honesty is refreshing.

I heard a quote from Seth Godin that went something like this... Bigger is not always better. Often it is better to be small and connected than to be big and anonymous.

That applies to so many things! Our relatioships, church, blogging, etc. I also have to regularly step back and say, no to fleshly thinking.

I just can't get into twitter and I barely frequent facebook. Although I love writing and sharing you are right about IRL relat. No use other people thinking you are amazing if your family does not.